A few random thoughts....

All the things I want to say, but don't have anyone to say them to:

We all make mistakes. It's hard to remember that when we are on the receiving end of the mistreatment. Just like sometimes I get selfish and want to do what I want to do, others do the same thing. I just have to remember that I am loved, and that there is no malicious attempt to hurt me...just human frailty.
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Since when did being pregnant give everyone else the liberty to make comments about my body. Yes, I know I am big...it's my fourth...it happens. No I'm not having twins. Yes I am sure about when my last menstrual cycle started.
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I love feeling the baby move in my tummy....but some days this is crazy. I am fearful we will have another 'Lance'...I wonder what a female version of Lance would be like. Cute. I'll stop there.
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We had the best early Christmas ever! Ben's family came out for a week, and I so enjoyed seeing them and spending time with them. Just being able to see something from 'home' made me finally not feel homesick. And I enjoyed decorating our new house for Christmas. Ben said we had the prettiest Christmas tree we have ever had (white lights with blinking colored lights).
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The rest of the month has been less than 'Christmasy'. Note to self for next year. If the kids are going to be in a Christmas program at church, the program will happen the first week of December or they will not participate. Lance and Lacey may not be in one next year anyway. I wonder if having a 9 month old baby will excuse me from being expected to help with the program.
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Had the worst backache last week. It was possibly a rib out of place. I went to the chiropractor twice and am feeling much better now. Now that I think about it, I should have used the backache to keep me out of being obligated to help with the Christmas program.....that would have been wrong....but very tempting.
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Homeschooling....it's going well if you only judge it by how much Lucas is learning...which is the important part, right? I really need some validation on that. I stink at planning (something that has to change), I am inconsistent (is it even possible to change that?), I'm not sure if I should do it in the morning to be done with it or if I should wait to the afternoon after Ben goes to work. If I do it in the morning, Ben inevitably gets up and gets Lucas doing something else, but if I wait to the afternoon, Lucas is less motivated to get started.
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Ben's job....so thankful that he has one...and a very good one at that, but I hate the hours. Not sure how much longer he will have the job since they have been putting him in another area because there is not enough work for his machine. My job is going great! Just don't like driving an hour to get there. I also don't like driving Ben's stick shift to get there. But for $31+ an hour, I don't really have much to complain about.
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Had so much fun shopping for the kids' Christmas presents! This year we are going to wait until Christmas Eve to put the gifts under the tree so we can try to keep the focus on the meaning of Christmas. The insanity of the last week has made that difficult, but hopefully we can start that tradition.
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My goal for next year (semester) during school is to use arts and crafts to teach different subjects/topics. I bought a bunch of stuff for the kids for Christmas. Now I just need to find some creativity.
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Off to bed now.